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I really want to start updating this again. I know I say that alllllll the time but I get so busy and it gets pushed to the side and I really miss writing. Maybe it'll be easier to update since I can do it from my iPhone now.

One day in late July or August I woke up and realized I wasn't doing what I really wanted to do. I've been baking my whole life and I feel the happiest when I'm making a recipe that I know will make my friends and family feel good. This was always just a hobby for me and people always said I could never make a living of it because it isn't very lucrative. So, nursing was my choice until I made lemon cupcakes for a picnic I went to and a pastry chef from a well known hotel in my area fell in love with them and told me he'd give me a job if I went to pastry school. Now, I don't exactly want to work there but the thought of doing that as a living was such an amazing thought, I couldn't get it out of my head. 2 days later I was driving to my new school for a tour, and I started the pastry arts program 2 weeks later. In about a year from now, I'll be a pastry chef. I LOVE it. Best decision I have ever made, by far.

In May, I leave school for my externship ANYWHERE in the country. But, since Bill and I have been planning to move to the beach, I think I'll do my externship there and scope out other places to work at permantley, and do some house hunting. I'm not sure if Bill will be coming with me when I go in May or if he's gonna wait until we find a house. I'll be lonely in an apartment so far from home by myself, but I honestly can't wait.

I think people have it all wrong. People are constantly in search of money, when they should be on the pursuit of happiness. Sure, money is important. But people spend their whole lives at jobs they hate because they make good money. I'd rather spend my whole life at a job I love and everything else will fall into place. Eveyone wants to be ridiculously rich, I've always just wanted to be comfortable and happy. I don't want to live paycheck to paycheck anymore and I want to be able to give my kids things I never had, that's it. I don't need 5 outrageously priced cars and a huge house. Just a house with a nice kitchen to bake in!

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Do you ever have so much to say and no idea how to say it? That's where I'm at now. So, until it starts pouring from my thoughts into my finger tips, I'll keep it to myself.

I am so ready for the first weekend of March. I'm going to see Danni and I need it now more than ever. Years ago, when Danni or myself were upset, we would go to each others' houses and eat a ton of junk food, drink beer and cry or laugh. I miss it so much. Some days when I'm having an awful day or when I know she's having an awful day, I just want to drive to her house and hang out because I know it'll make both of us feel better, and I can't because she doesn't live down the street from me anymore. Danielle George, I love you with my entire heart and I cannot wait to see you in 21 days.

Today, I had McDonalds with Alecia and Amelia (I love fast food). Alecia had to get her hair done so I babysat Amelia and it was so fun! All day long Millhouse kept saying, "MY TOOTH IS LOOSE!" and tonight when I was home, Alecia texted me and told me it had fallen out. Where does time go?

Off to watch Kitchen Nightmares! Gordan Ramsey is fantastic.

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My biology test was just as horrible as I expected it to be. I studied, all weekend long, I was feeling pretty confident and told myself to just think positive and it would be okay. Until she laid the test in front of me and I didn't even know the first question. She just words everything so weird. 2 other girls in my class and myself are forming a study group because no one understands what the hell she is ever talking about and I'm 90% sure that 90% of the class didn't do very well on that test, hopefully she'll curve it.

My math test today was AWESOME however (by the way, I NEVER thought I would say that). My math professor is the best, I'm so happy. I admitted to him today before the test and in front of the entire class that I said on Twitter that Math should be used as punishment for inmates on death row and I take it back now because it can actually be really fun when you understand it and when someone takes the time to help you understand it.

I just filed my taxes. $1,700! Some of that is going to go to my dad though, I received almost $600 for being a student and he's paying my tuition for now. I dissected a brain today in Psychology, picture under the cut.

Speaking of Psychology, I have a lot of homework to do for that class. Of course.

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I want to eat Olive Garden so bad right now. It doesn't help that I've been seeing commercials for it all day either.

I didn't have classes today but I spent the whole day doing homework and I'm not even close to being half way done. I got in a fight with my mom today because she called me and as soon as I picked up the phone I heard "What? You don't call me anymore?" And I tried to explain to her that I literally talk to NO ONE and every day I go to class and come home, study and do homework and Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays are just for me to do homework and she started in with "I find it hard to believe that you have so much homework", which made me really furious. As if I lovvvvvvvve doing nothing all week and all weekend long except school, studying and homework. As if I don't wish I could go to the bar on the weekends with my friends or go out to dinner with my friends. I took 2 extra credits this semester so I can apply for clinicals in the Fall, so yea, I do have THAT much homework. I know she's lonely (it doesn't help that my sister lives with her and never ever comes home), but she doesn't need to take it out on me.

I'm excited for Psychology class on Tuesday.... We're dissecting a brain! A sheep brain (not human), but a brain nonetheless! A lot of people have asked me why I'm doing that in Psychology, but I don't think people understand what Psychology 101 is about. Before we get into "feelings" and all the things that most people associate with Psychology, we need to understand how the brain works. It's really nice that my Human Biology, Microbiology and Psychology classes are all starting at the same spot (the basics of a cell) because I hear the same thing 3 times a day, makes tests much easier....Even though I feel like shitting myself every time I think about my Human Biology test on Monday because my professor is THE WORST. Really nice lady, terrible teacher. I have DREAMS about Monosaccharides, for Christ's sake.

Bill is playing poker tonight at his old house with all the guys. I'm taking my homework along (YAY!). I just need to keep telling myself it will all be worth it in the end.

As of right now, I'm sailing through English (as usual), I received an A on my first paper and my professor is really awesome.

Okay, back to homework. Adios!

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I decided to start this over, completely fresh. I went through all my old entries and read them as I deleted them. Just to recap:

- I had written about Alecia being pregnant. Her daughter, Amelia, turned 5 this past November.
- I was an angry teenager. Now I think I'm just sad rather than angry.
- My mom was sick then, and is even sicker now.
- I have grown up.

But, most importantly, I noticed this:

-The only thing in my life that is the same now as it was then, is Danni. She's still my other half, she's still my best friend. Only real friends would stick around for this long and all this bullshit.

Anyways. I started college a couple weeks ago. I'm drowning in homework, but I actually really enjoy going to class. I love meeting all the new people that I get to interact with, and it honestly takes my mind off a lot of things in my life.

I've made a promise to myself to update this every day, or at least almost every day. I enjoy it, and I truly do miss it. But, now I have to do homework!